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Why is it so hard for me to get hard work done? March 19, 2005 @ 6:41 p.m.
It has been such a battle for me to stay motivated at schoolwork lately. It was stupid from the beginning to overload myself with too many credits on top of intoxicating extracurricular activities, but now I really have to see things through because graduation, and possibly graduate school should I choose to apply, are at stake.
I tend to panic when I get large, vague projects with far off deadlines and no supervision. I keep thinking I can't do it until its the last minute, when I have to. I've been dealing with this problem for all long as I've been in school. In some respects, I'm a very lazy person, but only when it comes to work I dislike. Give me something that I'm passionate about and I'll burn the midnight oil becoming an expert and a master in it. Well, at least on an intellectual level, that being the easiest for me.
Project Censored and my two senior seminars are the most important classes I am taking this semester, yet also the most difficult and the hardest to stay at. So many times I get lost when it comes to research - I can't figure out what to look for or how to look and I freak out. I guess I just have to somehow learn to relax, experiment and problem solve.
Its not even rational I suppose - its almost as if there's some subconscious aversion that has given me a hot stomach every time I've had to deal with these situations.
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